Sick today.
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The moon was a delicate crescent in the west.
February 2nd, 2025
My life is proceeding at the pace of evaporating solvents
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When I picked up the guitar, I had the idea of learning to play it.
I also had the idea of using it to learn music theory.
Seeing as a music-theory-oriented guitar practice hasn't manifested on its own, I might need to find or come up with a curriculum.
February 6th, 2025
I factory reset all my gear today
I don't need all of that stuff that I accumulated
It feels nice -- and light
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One of my training partners said today --
"Why are you so down on yourself?"
"You want to be so good at this."
He's not entirely wrong-- and maybe I could lighten up on the mats too.
My teacher suggested that I could let every music-making session be totally fresh.
He has also suggested that I don't have to make everything -- good
I probably won't come back to read these log entries forever -- maybe not ever again, once the month is up
So I also probably don't need to fret endlessly about them being good
: : even so : :
I want to approach things in a disciplined way -- what's up with that?
Maybe there is some energy involved in discipline, and maybe that's interesting to me.
February 7th, 2025
I still have a great deal of exported recordings from 2024, even if I lack the raw recordings and project files
Listening to some in the car today, I thought, "Well, what if I make The Blob 2?"
February 11th, 2025
My weekends go by in a blur of intensive training
It seems I sprained my knee during a spar
These competition-style rolls are dangerous.
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I was thinking, "I don't really have time for music any more, do I?"
"I can't do this, AND the martial arts, AND the day job"
I decided I couldn't say that until I was truly making the effort to get up early.
I mean 4:30 AM early.
I mean 6 hours before work starts early.
: : so it seems : :
here's one advantage to exploring your limits
When you encounter a hard limit, the decisions are easy.
The decisions are easy, because you know what works, and what doesn't.
You know what doesn't work, because you tried and failed, maybe a lot.
You probably need to try, and fail, a lot.
February 25th, 2025
I stopped writing here, because life started moving pretty fast
SO, I lost the plot a bit.
Maintaining a habit is: feeling inclined to do something, doing it, and feeling good about doing it.
If you want to break a habit, best to not feel good about engaging in it.
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My knee feels better, but I'm taking it easier at training.
I'm probably in for a thrashing at competition, next weekend, since I've had so little time on the mat this month
: : and? : :
Q: How do you pay attention?
A: A sense of danger helps.
Q: How do you wake up?
A: A threat on your life helps.
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Don't fool yourself.